Pushing myself...

I have become complacent.

Okay with the way things are... just sitting around complaining and accepting that it is never gonna get better. That doesn't sound like me!! I have never, ever been this person. Why, when I need the "real me" the most, do I sit back and just let life happen.

At work one of my co-workers does triathlons... he told me today that I should do one... I said, yeah right... I can't do that. He said I was crazy and that I should just do it. That got me thinking... I have always wanted to do something like that. Its a big undertaking, but I need something to make me proud of myself... maybe I can do it!? I am gonna do some research and maybe, just maybe sign up for one of the short ones... that way I will have a date set... we'll see.

Today started off great... I decided to go in late and let the kids sleep in and then took them to Sonic for breakfast. We ate outside... it was so much fun! I am very glad that I took that opportunity... I need to do it more. I've really missed them and we are entering a cycle of them being gone a lot because their dad is in town for awhile. I need to grab every moment I can :D

Could this be the day!? The day that I start to turn things around!? Wouldn't that be amazing :D